Ready to Quit??? Failure?? Done with the Run??

I've run 4.4 Miles in 3 of the last 8 days    13.2 miles.    None of them were enjoyable.  None of them were fun.  I've wanted to quit during every single run.     Awhile back ...after several years of having to make myself run and exercise I had finally reached the point of enjoying it...of missing it the days that I didn't run.   I'm no longer at that place.   A month and a half of being sidelined with a broken toe and then a bunch of excuses and a month long cold---and I'm no longer enjoying it.  During every run that I've gone on to restart the process I've wanted to quit.....to throw in the towel and just give up on the whole thing.    Yet I keep trying...  My OCD that once drove me to keep stats on my runs and other exercises has let me down.  Depression with my job  has overpowered and helped me to fail in my goals.  You would think having a blog about it would help ---but even that failed to keep me on track.   My Virtual Run to Canada became a crawl.    So where to go from here???   Do I quit?   Do I write the whole thing off as a failure??? Or do I recommit and set new goals???  During this time of exercise failure that I fell off the wagon I still held on to the tail of the wagon like Indy at the end of Raiders......Now it is time to pull myself back on the wagon.....   There will be days that  I will still want to quit.....Every run over the next couple of months will be difficult and during each one I will go through a thousand thoughts of wanting to quit and give up.....But I guess during today's run I've decided that I'm not going to quit.    I'm setting goals for 2013 and hoping to kick my OCD back into a good cause.
It will be a struggle again .....it will be a fight,  but I will win.
2013 will be the Year of Brad......and not FAT by 42.

First up while everyone is sleeping in on January 1st and nursing their hangovers and before they have even made their resolutions that they will not succeed in for 2013  I'm  going to do my first challenge for 2013..........13 for 2013.......I will run 13 miles on the first day of 2013......and will then set on a plan  (whether I like it or not)  to run at least 5 days a week  at least until swim season.

Virtual Run to Canada Update

November Run  Date unknown   3.3 Miles

December 15th  4.4 Miles

December 22nd   4.4 Miles

December 25th  4.4 Miles

December 29th  4.4 Miles

477.8  Miles so far  in 2012

Virtual run to Canada since  Feb 14  2011   1363.7  

78.4 miles to Canada